The Ancients.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Today's service was...don't know how to say...刺心?
lol there is no such word kay.
the word cut through my heart like a double-edged sword.
lol.
一种无法描写的感觉.
aka 非笔墨所能形容的.
it's like so true.
that even though on the outside, everything seems futile, seems as if whatever effort you put in was all in vain.
all your labour, all your tears and sacrifices, all in vain.
seems as if no one sees it and no one appreciates it.
seems as if no one gives you even the slightest bit of affirmation, all you wanted was just a thank you.
seems as if people might think that you're slacking and all.
but God sees your efforts and will reward accordingly.
maybe people might think that I am a super lousy shepherd.
maybe people might think that as a C-La I am not doing much.
maybe people might think that I am throwing everything to sam.
But no matter what I have to be secure in God.
Cannot let what people think affect me.
(:
cannot.
a song that encourages me:
5 loaves and 2 fishes - Corrinne MayA little boy of thirteen
was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom,
even the kids could understand
The hours passed so quickly
the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry
but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed
But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:
"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
to feed them all"
I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all
But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer
So I'll give you every breadth that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"
Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small
I trust in you
I trust in you
Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small anyway sam had a nightmare a few nights ago.
and it happened in nexus auditorium.
well, nightmare in my terms but maybe not in her terms.
lol.
she said I gave her a shy face when I said (whatever I said in the dream).
eeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
shy face ._.
yuck.
why would I give a shy face if that was what I was saying.
eeks.
see luh now I keep on thinking about it ._.
please don't ever let it happen.
no way no way no way.
never!
and I bought a new pick today.
2 new picks in fact.
one black and one red :D
my favourite colours.
and cool colours.
cos I lost my grey one lol.
(9:20 PM)
