The Ancients.
Presents from my beloved patrol.
in the message, zhenling and pearlyn called me "masheng that holds p6 together by bringing the juniors closer to us".
but I think they are yingshengs(:
the yingshengs that hold p6 together.
the yingshengs that support us on the shengqiao, strong and sturdy, never breaking under our weight.
the yingshengs that tie themselves super tight to a railing on a higher ground, letting us climb up to greater heights and never becoming loose.
the yingshengs that wrap around us tightly on the fireman's chair so that we can be pulled out of wherever we're being trapped in.
though the yingshengs are no longer ours physically, but in our hearts they will always be OUR yingshengs who have seen us through from the very beginning of guides.
yesterday claire and I were trying super hard to control our tears during the more emo performaces, cos as emcees, abit awkward if we suddenly break down ._.
but when zhenling pearlyn kimberley spoke, I just remembered everything I had gone through with them and p6, and couldn't control anymore luh.
how weird it'll feel without the sec4s.
maybe when one of my juniors ask a question, I would reply, "I think it's better for you to ask zhenling or pearlyn.", which is what I always do cos I scared later tell them wrong info ._.
and then suddenly I realise.
oh ya hor.
oh ya hor.
can't do that anymore ):
independence.
responsibility.
perseverance.
confidence.
okay sec3s let's jiayous!
no use wallowing in the leaving of our sources of reassurances.
we gotta move on.
can't live in emo-ness for too long.
though it might not be so easy to get used to immediately :X
(8:40 PM)
