The Ancients.
I can't believe my life is getting more and more interesting.
Surprises and more.
hahaha.
Today the seating plan changed again.
As in just a minor one.
The people on my left and right exchanged place with each other.
So yup I have a new seating partner now.
phew.
at least like that I won't be so freaked out by that dream.
(not a personal attack hor)
and while waiting for the train at city hall, I was recalling that time a few months ago when I went home together with Sabrina after jap.
and we were talking and talking about lots of stuff.
in my mind I was thinking, "how nice if she were with me today."
and then, suddenly I saw this girl in AYG shirt waving to me.
It was Sabrina!!!!!
omg omg omg.
I tell you that's how interesting my life is getting.
Everyday is full of surprises.
wow.
I'm actually looking forward to school can you believe it?
O.o
anyway, I love school day mornings :D
cos I'm with the girls(:
They never fail to make a good start to my school day.
And that's why, before morning assembly, when I step into 3J, I am always filled with happiness(:
you girls are like my sunshine.
can't live without a dose of it every school morning.
hahahaha.
yeah and another interesting thing about my life right now?
We're in the midst of discussing our pdp performance item.
and we're so so so excited about the ideas that have poured in continuously!!!!
hahahaha.
shan't reveal much here :D
await the surprise :DDDD
(9:23 PM)
life is so so so unexpected.
today was a shocking day.
ya changed seating arrangement.
omg can.
I had a dream that this person was going to be my term 3 seating partner.
In my dream, the seating arrangement was a hard copy and I was just looking at it.
So anyway I kind of forgot about that dream cos it happened a month ago.
Until today I got reminded of it just before helaoshi flashed the new seating plan.
And I was like "omg if my dream really comes true I'm going to freak out and scream."
(not a personal attack against anyone, just that I mean you'd freak out if your dream came true right? lol)
so I was covering my eyes with my tie.
Then helaoshi flashed the seating plan.
I was searching for my name and found it.
And, the name next to mine was exactly like that in my dream, only that now it was in soft copy instead of hard copy.
No, I didn't scream.
I was too stunned to do so.
For the remaining 15 minutes before school ended, I was just stoning and stunned, still not believing how deja vu it seemed.
very very scary.
It was only until the bell rang did I start freaking out and screaming to all my guides girls.
omg this is so freaky.
seriously.
imagine if you dreamt about somebody getting hit by a car and then a month later watching the scene play in front of your very eyes in real life.
that's how I felt.
O.O
well anyway I shall just try my best to adapt to my surroundings.
animals can do that, so why can't I? :D
Though I gotta warn my seating partner first.
I usually start out having the I-am-not-used-to-my-surroundings-so-I-will-dao-people symdrome.
LOL.
but I'll get used to it. I hope.
Just like how I did it with my first partner Zijun :D
(edited)
gosh I just realised I've got loads of other dreams that have to do with school life.
with dunmanians.
and I just got reminded of one dream today that happened around 2 weeks ago.
I remember I woke up from that dream feeling something.
The emotion felt so real.
So so real.
Yeah so how did I get reminded of that dream again?
Cos someone was saying (something something).
Then in my heart I was like, "gosh what if it's true?"
I dreamt of it, and now I'm hearing a 'confirmation' of some sort from someone.
honestly speaking, I don't know whether I want it to come true or not.
lol.
Part of me finds it interesting if it comes true.
Like it'd be shocking to the world, something unexpected.
and the experience would be quite cool, something I've never experienced before.
But another part thinks that I won't exactly be happy if it comes true.
cos I remember waking up from that dream with sweat all over me.
hmm...
dreams dreams dreams.
lol.
Sherly's dream is something like my above mentioned.
only that hers is much scarier and freakier if it comes true :X
(5:47 PM)
oh my goodness.
I feel like a joke.
A big joke.
I opened DHS mail and found an email regarding the new timetable for yr3 classes.
So I clicked on the '3J timetable'.
And when I opened it I almost screamed.
Being Cherisse, I only saw the bottom ending line.
and aligned it with the time.
And this was what I saw.
Day 1: 4.15
Day 2: 1.45
Day 3: 4.15
Day 4: 4.15
Day 5: 1.45
Day 6: 4.15
Day 7: 1.45
Day 8: 4.15
Day 9: 3.45
Day 10: 1.45
and I was like, 'what omg why lessons end at 4.15 on monday and wednesday when it was suppose to end at 3.15???'
'How can they change the timetable to this extent???'
then I msn-ed crystabelle and started complaining and ranting.
a snippet of the convo.
{
soldiers of the revival army. may 'the force be with us. says:omg %$£%$%&$%$£"$%£%£%£$
soldiers of the revival army. may 'the force be with us. says:i hate the new timetable
soldiers of the revival army. may 'the force be with us. says:omg omg omg omg
soldiers of the revival army. may 'the force be with us. says:go dhsmail check
argh. july is a bad month for me D: says:o.o
argh. july is a bad month for me D: says:i seen alr
argh. july is a bad month for me D: says:haha why
argh. july is a bad month for me D: says:i thought quite ok
argh. july is a bad month for me D: says:got no math on 1st day
soldiers of the revival army. may 'the force be with us. says:sch end 415 everyday
argh. july is a bad month for me D: says:no la
argh. july is a bad month for me D: says:3.15
argh. july is a bad month for me D: says:only 1st wk thurs
argh. july is a bad month for me D: says:415
soldiers of the revival army. may 'the force be with us. says:u go see mine
soldiers of the revival army. may 'the force be with us. says:u go see
}
and then after looking through the 3J timetable again...
I realised...
the last period was 'china study'.
which is bsp.
it was just like how they did the timetable for first semester -.-
another snippet of our convo.
{
soldiers of the revival army. may 'the force be with us. says:omg hahahahaha im so stupid
soldiers of the revival army. may 'the force be with us. says:omg i cnt believe im so stupid
soldiers of the revival army. may 'the force be with us. says:omg
soldiers of the revival army. may 'the force be with us. says:i failed to see what was the last period of monday and wed
soldiers of the revival army. may 'the force be with us. says:china study
soldiers of the revival army. may 'the force be with us. says:wich is bsp
soldiers of the revival army. may 'the force be with us. says:and sth i dont take
soldiers of the revival army. may 'the force be with us. says:omg im so stupid
argh. july is a bad month for me D: says:LOL
argh. july is a bad month for me D: says:LOL
argh. july is a bad month for me D: says:LOL
argh. july is a bad month for me D: says:LOL
argh. july is a bad month for me D: says:HAHAHHA
}
To think I was getting all angsty over the new timetable.
And I almost wanted to group convo all the 3J peeps online and scream to them lol omg thank God I didn't do it.
or else I'd be maknig a fool of myself in front of them O.o
hahaha.
anyway latest update about h1n1.
we now have over 400+ cases omg.
I'm pretty sure we're counted as an 'affected' country.
remembered weixin having H3 influenza not long ago and we were teasing her, "omg weixin stay away!!"
h5n1's the thing that doctors are afraid h1n1 would mutate into.
and I forgot that h5n1 is bird flu until Tabitha told me yesterday -.-
(10:24 PM)
It is said that when someone tells you something they observed about you, or an advice for you, you can choose whether or not to consider his/her words.
For all you know, it could be just their own inference or assumption.
But when someone else says the same thing.
Then you better think twice whether or not to listen to their words.
That was what happened to me.
While I was praying during one of my qts, I was reminded that I had to step out and take ownership of eb2b.
Today my shepherd was telling me that I have to step out of my comfort zone, take ownership of eb2b, lead together with sam.
She was saying that I'm scared to do so cos I think I'm too young compared to the other eb2 shepherds.
which is ya kinda true.
I'm scared.
Then during altar call, pastor jeff was like saying something like, "I wanna pray for all those out there, who know that God has more in plan for them, and that they gotta step out in faith" etc etc something along that line.
And I was like.
stunned.
oh my gosh.
anyway I had a great time getting to know 2 of my sheeps better at lunch.
yup they're so cute haha.
chionging across roads to le meridian food centre with them was so funny.
So thrilling hahaha.
The cars were like.
unexpected.
haha anyway back to the topic about 2 people telling you the same thing.
I was reminded of stuff that 2 people totally unrelated to each other telling me.
"you have creative ideas, but you just need to speak up and initiate more"
Me creative?
define creative.
lol.
maybe creative in the sense that according to Michelle, I can relate everything under the sun to Michelle's white chocolate and tease her with it.
hahahahahaha.
or link everything under the sun back to crystabelle's Super-Junior/Senior-Junior and tease her with it.
haha.
(9:28 PM)
Feel such a sense of accomplishment when I see the pdp proposals.
Really hope all these will turn out the way we have planned it to be(:
await the surprise hehehe :D
how ironic.
We're getting all excited and jumpy about weird weird ideas while planning pdp.
But the truth is that we dread that day to come ):
(9:38 PM)
had a really productive time discussing pdp with Claire.
We were just pouring out ideas continuously and we were all excited and jumpy and everything haha.
we were like planning some surprise party lol.
but omg I really really liked what we ended up with.
shall not disclose too much :D
then we went to kachiao the AYG peeps doing duty today.
took some pictures haha.
Then wenxin was like, "I scared my boss fire me ))):"
LOL.
(3:12 PM)
Meeting claire for some pdp discussion later :D
I miss you luh claire!
Haven't seen you for so long.
Wanna hear more about your...life story...
haha.
anyway I tried watching a few episodes of BOF.
not bad leh.
GJD rocks!
She's so pretty and so courageous.
If I were a boy I'd marry her.
LOL.
miss my dear guides girls.
miss my sheeps.
miss my shepherd.
miss my cg.
miss my class.
maybe no extension of holiday is not such a bad thing after all(:
anyway just wanna thank my shepherd for always hearing me rant and rant.
and replying all my act cool smses haha.
you have been my shepherd for 1 year omg.
though our age gap abit big, it's okay! :D
seen me grow up from zhen1 tian2 to geng4 tian2.
hahaha if you know what that means :D
thank you very much.
- your youngest(but not for long) + liar-est sheep :D
(9:14 AM)
Some pictures from 'Unstoppable' camp!
The first day.
lmao at siyao.
slumber party in chalet!
our eb2 identity!
last day.
(2:17 PM)
4 days off blogging and smsing.
seriously sounds like I went to some kind of camp.
haha no luh I just went to malaysia to visit relatives.
proud to say that I did manage to finish up 90% of LA essay there.
bet I put on 4985784623746 kg cos I ate ALOT.
haha but anyway God gave me a mouth so that I can eat yeah? :D
oh anyway the food that was served during mealtimes for ayg duty was uber cool.
According to peishan, "很幸福的感觉".
which is true!
haha but I really had fun at ayg duty on 18th and 19th.
niao-ing michelle about rachel was fun :D
espcially when nicholete joined in.
disclaimer: rachel is a fake name given to someone, not any of the rachels that you might know.
you should have seen michelle's face mann.
epic ownage.
oh by the way I arrived home at about 10pm last night.
Something happened on the journey back from Malaysia to Singapore.
The car tyre burst -.-
Just when we were almost nearing the Malaysian immigration checkpoint.
Thank God there was this part time mechanic who drove behind us, so he helped us replace the tyre with a spare one.
So we set off in about 40 minutes.
heard alot of stuff about the h1n1 situation in Singapore.
Including the cases about a few athletes being tested positive for it.
feel really sad for all those patients with h1n1.
or those being quarantined as suspects.
people out there who are flaming them on online forums, please stop calling them 'irresponsible' etc etc.
it's bad enough that they're down with the influenza.
For some, the sympthoms don't show that quickly.
how do you expect them to know that they've gotten it?
especially if they have not been to any affected countries.
I mean if you feel perfectly fine and do not have any travel history to affected countries, you would not stay at home the whole day right?
You guys should be comforting them instead of blaming them for spreading the flu to more people.
Not like they wanted it ):
(1:34 PM)
Goodbye!!
I'm going to Malaysia from tomorrow morning until next Tuesday night.
Homework hmmm...
Aiyah not that bad luh.
left geog essay, bio self study and 65% of LA essay :D
i know some people have finished it already so just pretend you didn't see what I just wrote(:
Till then, cya!
(9:13 PM)
Reflections.
I learnt what it meant to have godly courage.
I realised how timid I am in the area of correcting others especially as a shepherd.
Even for 1 sheep I couldn't bring myself to rebuke her, just cos I was afraid our friendship would sour.
I was like, wah now got 3 sheeps how leh?
One, my original one, another my super duper close friend for 1 year+, another a hi-bye sms friend.
I prayed for more godly courage, not to fear men more than fearing God, cos if not I will end up like Eli in 1 Samuel.
Human strength is limited, but God's strength is complete.
New vision for y-hope: 180.
"God is not looking for capable people, but people who are faithful"
Also learnt about the importance of not having disunity in a caregroup.
when there is disunity, love will be lost, and a caregroup without love is just called group.
That's what the 'care' word is there for, cos we care for one another(:
as I was praying during one of the worships for what directions for eb2b, God put this picture in my head.
Standing at the door (actually there's no door, just a rectangular hole just nice for people to go in), of a small grey brick house with a small, squarish hole for a window overlooking grassland that had no ending.
the house was totally empty, no furnishings, carpets, whatsoever.
but in the middle of the house, there were 2 grey brick stands.
one stand had a 3D-ish red heart model on it.
The other stand had a 3D-ish hand-shaped model on it.
totally didn't understand what that meant at first and didn't continue praying about it.
however the next day, I had the urge to pray again over the meaning behind the picture.
what I got was:
the small grey brick house was our cg, simple, ordinary, no need for rainbow-coloured bricks, flowery wallpapers, chandeliers etc.
no door, because we'd be welcoming to anyone and not shut ourselves from the world.
the heart represented love, the hand represented helping hands.
the window was to reach out to give others a purpose for life, the endless grassland view was to look far ahead, how much more God could use us to go further, no boundaries.
sidetrack abit.
Go listen to the song No Boundaries by Kris Allen/Adam Lambhart (sp?), look at the lyrics, very inspiring woah.
yeah and leow's one was that many young teens would be joining us, with repeated problems previously faced by us, but even though we were young, we could grow so much more.
really looking forward to new shepherds rising up, not only in eb2 but also as a whole(:
p.s. siyao, I'm waiting for my grand-sheep(s) and yiching, I'm waiting for my grandniece-sheep(s) :D
hahaha lol.
(5:30 PM)
I'm back!
Well I received alot, not only fun experiences but also many touching moments.
Well started off my day 1 with a big shock.
Leow suddenly called me at around 11.15am to tell me that according to someone, I was the cg team leader for games and there was a briefing that was going on right now.
I was about to leave the house.
I was super shocked like huh omg I didn't know anything about it.
so I just chionged there and was 30mins late cos briefing started at 11am.
oops sorry :X
apologised and then everything was okay.
games was really really fun :D
eb2 combined with another cg to form leopard tank group 1 (so sorry I have bad memory, can't remember the name of the other cg)
after games was basically teachings, praise and worship, testimony etc yup so that was day 1.
next morning was the teachings etc before lunch, and after lunch was a cool workshop on love language!
My love language is quality time and words of affirmation :D
quite alot of people in eb2 also had quality time.
had free time before Battle Of The Sexes!!!
where girls wore pink and guys wore blue.
I had like pink top and pink overalls haha pink rocks! :D
Watched the ULs battled it out in front of the whole y-hope.
super funny hahahahahahaha!!!
Their dance was super cool too.
After that was dinner and then teachings etc.
3rd day was quite a hiong day haha.
Teachings before lunch, and after lunch was war games!
had super lots of fun snatching people's plastic bags :DDDD
Though I didn't get the feel of attacking the opposition houses with the water bombs, but haha nvm(:
Had free time after that where we chionged our identity in the comfort of the chalet :D
And after dinner was the last teaching for the camp, and then the highlight of the night aka 'The Night Before'!
really really awesome.
closing ceremony, and then we had the eastBC 1st year anniversary performance!
super entertaining!
shan't elaborate, shall post the videos up here when I get them :D
then after that we just spent the rest of the night + morning together as eb2.
yeah so some of us slept at 3am, some 4am, some 530am hahaha.
And woke up for macs breakfast at 7+.
ended the whole camp with a bang and phototaking!
haha we did alot of retarded actions :D
yup so that's about all.
learnt alot alot of stuff, too many to describe in words haha but I shall some of my learning points in another post cos now I gotta go bathe properly.
whole day study date tomorrow with 41st batch! :D
shall aim to finish all the HCL stuff then go home and type everything out.
jiayous cherisse! :D
(9:10 PM)
off to Downtown East from tomorrow to next monday!
Bye!
I'm gonna have so much fun :D
(9:58 PM)
yay just finished chem online quiz :D
one less homework!
jiayous mann!
F.
Is a very dangerous letter.
see the
f-word.
look at how many people it has offended.
look at how many people's images it has ruined.
see
Fake.
look at how many people it has fooled.
see
Fool.
look at how many people it has faked.
see
Facade.
look at how many people it has fooled and faked.
see
Favourtism.
look at how many comparisons between people it has brought about.
look at how many people it has hurt, how many people's self esteem has been lost.
look at how many relationships it has broken.
all these happened because of
F-words.
literally,
F-words.
wow I'm so LA-ish.
WOW.
lol.
(9:48 PM)
Whole day on idmi filming today.
Finished filming yay!
Did abit of cropping too.
We're ahead of schedule!
Gonna aim to finish up editing tomorrow.
haha I had alot of fun today.
Acting as one of the 3 bullies in the film :D
supposedly the most evil one -.-
my favourite part was the toilet scene in which I snatched away the protagonist's hat.
Though we got 'scolded' by Sheena's character -.-
Hah.
but this idmi filming was a rare chance where we got to 'insult' one another :D
something we don't usually get to do since we're such nice friends awww.
anyway my group members were talking about this 'boys over flowers' show and were encouraging me to go watch it because they were crazy over it O.o
shall attempt to watch 1 episode online after I'm done with ALL my homework and see whether it is as nice as they described it to be.
lol.
yay cg bbq tomorrow from 4-8pm!
looking forward! :D
gonna be so fun!
confessing to another sheep tomorrow :X
(8:28 PM)
whoo.
finally finished 1 physics past year paper.
kays take it slow and steady mann.
anyway today I confessed to one of my new sheeps.
The one who has been acquainted with me for 2 1/2 years.
Hi claire(:gosh it was so weird can.
She said she was speechless.
Actually, so am I.
lol.
you know the feeling when your sheep finally calls you 'shepherd' on sms for the first time?
It's like so sweet and heartwarming!
Suddenly you feel so close to her.
haha sorry maybe it's just weird me.
left 1 more to confess to.
nervous luh.
learn alot alot alot from WordForLife CLC1.
All the stuff are really really relevant.
爱屋及乌 LOL.
Discussed a bit with Sam about EB2b.
Gotten lots of insights from her.
Well, it's the start of something different.
Really really different.
We're in some place we never imagined we'd ever be in.
With people we never imagined we'd ever meet.
"When God sees that you're in your comfort zone, He'll take you out into the combat zone. And when you have adapted, out you go into combat zone again."Well to be brutally honest.
I AM really scared of this new beginning for EB2b.
I don't even dare to pray for the vision.
No no no, I must be brave and ask bravely.
gah :X
(9:45 PM)
Hi I feel very LA-ish now so I shall play with words yay.
I have 4 friends: Everybody, Nobody, Anybody, Somebody
The 5 of us are the best of friends, although I don't have 'body' in my name.
One fine day.
Everybody was upset with me.
Although Anybody could tell me, Nobody did the job.
While Everybody was talking, Somebody overheard and told me what Everybody said about me.
I said that Nobody told me that, and asked why Nobody did so when Anybody could do it.
Somebody replied, "Simple, cos Everybody refused to speak up, and although Anybody could do that, Nobody wanted to. Thus, Nobody did it.
LOL read it again slowly if you don't get the joke(s).
that's what you get out of playing with words.
Fun right? :D
Happy 1 year spiritual birthday!!!!
woots!
Got AYG briefing tomorrow at swissotel omg so grand.
And I'm gonna meet one of my new sheeps to confess to her after that ahhhh.
Don't know her reaction.
this whole week 2 of holidays will be burnt on idmi filming.
Finished all the match assignments.
so happy.
Took me a week to complete all the 6 topics.
Nearly died lol.
And I'm still left with:
-2 physics past year papers
-2 topics for physics workbook
-HCL stuff
-Geog essay
-LA essay on BBYD
-Chem self study + ws
-Bio self study
what kind of holiday mann.
and I'm left with 3 more weeks of holidays.
Including 2 days taken out for AYG duty and week 2 blocked out for idmi and 4 days of church camp.
haha can finish de luh :D
must have faith.
Just don't know where to start now lol.
Maybe I shall start with the physics homework bah.
(9:26 PM)
Okays hi I'm just here to apologise for all the insensitive posts I've made here on my previous blog at mysummertimediaries.bs
Sorry if I hurt anyone directly or indirectly.
Really sorry for being insensitive.
I understand that although a blog is used to express one's feelings, it shouldn't be used as a tool for complaints or flaming.
Especially so if it is on a platform where anyone and everyone can view it.
I am sincerely sorry and hope that all the readers will forgive me and not hold it against me anymore.
I have realised my mistake and promise not to do it again.
Happy spiritual birthday eve!
7th of jun(:
which is tomorrow.
Well so anyway...
restructuring of EB2.
change is on the way, that is.
EB2 became EB2a and EB2b.
Well and 4 shepherds of 1 became shepherds of 3.
I don't know what to say luh.
It's just that it happened too quickly and suddenly.
I mean I did know about the restructuring beforehand, just that it's still kind of hard to adapt.
Yeah.
My 3 current sheeps are so different from one another.
Each unique in her own way.
And I'm at different levels of friendship with each one.
One has been my sheep for almost half a year.
One has been acquainted with me for 2 1/2 years, but now will be the start of another kind of friendship.
One is not very close to me, only hi-bye kind of schoolmates.
What am I to do?
I feel so incapable.
I don't know how to begin. how to start. how to break the news to them.
What will be their reaction?
LOL.
But nevertheless, it still has to be done.
asap.
and knowing who I am, it's definitely not gonna be a direct 'hi I'm your new shepherd' kind of thing.
I'm gonna do it the indirect way.
that is, to play with their minds and do algebraic manipulation on them :D
(10:04 PM)
